Jessica
20 already
23/02/1988
Nanyang Poly
Dip in Mechatronics Engineering

Always follow your heart, not your mind...

Family
Him
Friends
Basketball
Shopping
Crapping
Sleeping
Chatting

Ants - more of afraid!!
No Money....
Pimples~~
Skin Peeling....
Backstabbing friends
Bitches
Jerks, Bastards and Assholes
Guys who tinks they are big shots!

A medium Shetland Sheepdog
My)hosis Shawl
Driving License
Sports Bag
New Bikini
BIG TEDDY BEAR
Digital Camera
Havaianas Slippers
NewUrbanMale Tokyo Singlet
NewUrbanMale Germany Singlet
New Wallet
Tepanyaki Dinner Treat at Pacific Hotel
More Blouses/Shirts

Family

Alvin
Amira
Audrey
Brenda
ChouKin
GhimHian
Jasmin
JiaYuan
Joseph
LohBiao
Melvin
Samson
Sheryl
Stanley
WanLin
YongShen

Ministry of Savoir-Faire

hmm.. been kinda lazy to post entries recently.. haha hmmm anyway i've gained weight and now i'm freaking 50 kg.. juz wondering where have all the fats gone too haha.. and i've kinda beefed up too.. seeing muscles ard my arms and abs haa.. sad i'm becoming so manly!! haha.. 100 push ups a day plus jogging is realli making mi fitter haha.. frens say tt i look much healthy nowadays haha..

hmmm besides being bigger.. my heart is in a whirlpool now.. i'm constantly crying inside while i have to put up a hard front.. i wish to burden no one.. but i juz can't help it.. i admit i'm jealous, i'm waiting, i'm being avoided, i'm tired, i'm smiling with thorns in my heart.. i have really no idea wat i should do now.. i am quite miserable now though.. i may say i'm over and i'm fine but the truth is i'm not.. but my mind always speaks otherwise whereas my heart yearns for something else..

Honestly speaking i have realy idea how to continue or handle it but i'm trying so hard not to break down.. but i'm a female afterall and i cant always be happy outside whilst i'm sad inside.... this is juz the same when i was with jaysen.. i'm juz wondering when i tot tt things would be better, something would happen and i'm back to the two masks person and being sucked into a deep black hole again...

i'm juz tired.. i wish to juz sit down and cry but i juz cant be able to show my tt weak side to others.. i'm terribly hurt...